Growing up I always considered myself someone who was up for anything.
Horse back riding – check
Para sailing – check
Bunji jumping in Thailand – check
But as I’ve gotten older, responsibilities have taken shape
and I don’t always feel as though I can “let go”
I have small children at home that need me
that watch me
I need to make adult decisions that will set them on the right pace for life.
What if they see Mommy + Daddy living on the edge,
what does that tell them?
But you know what’s happened over time?
That feeling of needing to be responsible, logical and overly careful
has begun to weigh down my life.
Lately I’ve felt as if every decision I have to make
everything I have to do
Has made me feel strained.
And the enemy
Oy, the enemy has been trying to make me feel bad for my accomplishments
Try to hide them
Make me feel as though I need to second guess myself
I knew we had a weekend getaway planned in Utah coming up.
I was looking forward to getting away
Spending some time enjoying life.
I was even looking forward to getting to wear fall clothes.
I’m a boots kind of girl, for sure!
Kyle began talking about skydiving over a week before we left
like he was priming me for this activity so I would mentally be ready
I had no plans to go!
Being the loving wife I am, I was going to watch the view from the group, all the while making sure our life insurance policy covered this craziness.
Even on the morning of the jump, I had no plans to go.
As we drove to the Ogden Airport,
I began rethinking my decision not to go.
I thought about the last time I let loose and did something fun + out of my comfort zone.
We talked casually as we filled out the paperwork.
Enjoyed chatting with the skydiving staff as we waited for our turn.
Held it together as they began tightening the harness.
The next thing I knew we were off!
The view from the plane was incredible!!!
I could see Utah, Idaho + Nevada from the air.
It was breath taking.
I was surprisingly calm.
Then the door opened. People began to jump.
At this point, I realized I was going to be the last one to jump.
Before I knew it I was at the edge of the plane and back flipping through the air.
It was incredible!!!
By the time we safely landed on the ground, I felt more exhilarated that I had felt in a long time.
It made me feel like if I could accomplish this, I could accomplish anything.
I know it’s might sound crazy, but maybe God knew I needed to do this.
Maybe He used it to teach me that through Him + with Him all things are possible.
So I’m going to stop listening to the enemy.
Stop apologizing for the business opportunities God has given me.
Start embracing life to the fullest.
What are you embracing today?
P.S. I included a video of our jump if you want to see it. Our kids have had it on repeat since we got home! They’ve decided it’s “so cool” and they want to jump out of a jet and fly like a bird. #holdme